49 Days In 1988: Week 15 – When The World Comes Tumbling Down

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London – April 10th, 1988

I did see Stewart again on Saturday, but it all seems to be going downhill now. Once again, all the good feelings I had over the last week have gone, and I feel in such a mess.

I think the situation was made worse when I brought Dean home last night and slept with him. Why I did that, I’ll never know. Maybe because deep down inside I felt lonely and so did he? Stephen also mentioned to me that Kev and himself were pleased that Dean and I have struck up a friendship because Dean doesn’t really have any friends. I know that what I’ve done is totally wrong, but if it’s helped Dean, then that’s good, isn’t it?

Back to Stewart, though. I met up with him this evening and it was like meeting a different person. I knew there was something wrong when I saw him. His body language was all wrong. Then the poo really did hit the fan when he told me to go away and think hard about what I was getting myself into. He also said that I had to realise that Barry and himself were committed to each other and that if we did enter a relationship, then it wouldn’t be a proper one!

It’s just not fair, is it? I really like Stewart, and tonight I think we had our last drink and talk together and that this is now all over. He must really care so much for Barry, but why wouldn’t he? Plus, after what I did last night, do I really care for Stewart, or is all this just a game I’m enjoying? 

We’ve both agreed that we should not see each other for a while so that I can think about things. Whether we’ll see each other again, though, I just don’t know. Do I really want to be in a threeway relationship? It was love I was looking for, not a love game.     

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Welcome to this new feature for 2018 on Hugh’s Views and News. In this feature, I’ll be sharing snippets from my diary of 1988. We’ll also take a trip in Hugh’s Music Time machine to hear some songs from the 1980s which have been chosen by some specially invited guests.

This week, however, I’m on my own! (A little like I was feeling in the diary entry I’ve shared with you). That means not only do I get the chance to choose a song but also to share some news with you that, from June, I’ll be taking a bit of a break to get my second book of short stories ready for publication. During that time, this feature will continue to be published, but I’ll otherwise be away from the blogging world for about six weeks. I’ll give some more details in an upcoming post being published towards the end of May.

So, on to my song choice. This is a song which fits in very well with this week’s diary entry.

Released in 1988, ‘The Only Way Is Up‘ became a big hit for Yazz and the Plastic Population. The song was initially released as a single in 1980 by soul singer Otis Clay, but it failed to become a hit. The 1988 version, by Yazz, became an instant hit and charted at number one in five countries, including the UK, but only peaked at number 96 on the Billboard Hot 100 in the U.S.A.

Do you have a favourite song that never fails to lift you up? Share a link to it in the comments.

Next week, have we heard the last of Stewart? Is romance really dead?

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  1. I am loving the music on your feature Hugh as much as I am your diary entries and special guests. It is win-win all the way!
    I hope that you have a very productive 6 weeks off in June and excited that you are working on your new book.
    I am happy that you are keeping this going whilst you are away – even if I am always a bit behind!! 🙂

    1. Yes, this will be the only feature I will be publishing while on my blogging break, Judy. I’m pleased to say that I’m ahead of schedule on my next book so I may not be gone for as long as I thought. 😀

  2. Hi Hugh
    Somehow I missed this post. I’ll miss your blog while you’re on hiatus. I love the music. I’ve not heard it before. Makes me want to get up and dance.

  3. Let’s see- so much to say here! I’m excited about your second book! Yay!
    That song is very uplifting. Music is so much part of my life that I’m not sure I can pick just one. I have an entire playlist of songs that lift me up!

    And on the Stewart front- I guess that partially answers some of my questions. It does sound very much like a triangle or more. I can’t imagine how you felt at that time. Sometimes we do things and we aren’t even aware of the reasons why. I guess some things need to happen to move us to the place we are meant to be. I can’t wait to hear what’s up next!

    1. Love is blind, or so some say, Kat. I think it was blinding me when I met Stewart. It was all very complicated but didn’t seem so at the time. I should have perhaps put myself in the shoes of Barry. Still, lessons were learnt. Or were they? 🤔

  4. I didn’t have a good feeling about how things would turn out with Stewart. What an uncomfortable place you are in for this week’s diary entry. I can feel the angst. Like ending a song with an unresolved chord. Congratulations on book two – glad you are taking the time to get it underway. Great song choice.

  5. I thought there might be a new character introduced, but I thought that it would be through Stewart! I am sorry that you had to experience such confliction but your diary is better than a t.v. drama 😉

  6. I think Stewart had a few things to ponder as well. What a quandary you managed to get yourself into! I love your song choice. As you said, a perfect fit. And kudos for getting your second book ready for publication. Exciting! Have a great weekend, my friend ❤

    1. Thank you, Tina. It’s about time I got myself into gear and get the second book off the ground. Once I’m focused, there’ll be no stopping me. Looking forward to seeing you onboard the music time machine next week.

  7. I’m so looking forward to next week’s instalment. Good news you are going to be polishing up book two – and that you are thinking about book three. I think this would be a great book, with all the extra detail of where you went for drinks, nights out , nights in – everything. I’m so nosy – it’s the journalist in me.

    1. Nosy is good, Mary. It makes people buy books, newspapers, magazines and subscribe to video channels. 😀 I like that idea very much. There seems to be a good appetite for a book from this feature. The idea has certainly been planted.

  8. Awww Hugh, I’ve always loved that song – it really helped pick me up again after my overdose, as much as anything because I’d hit such a low point in life the only way really was up 🙂 Good luck with the new book! X

  9. The course of true love, eh, Hugh? I look forward to the next instalment to see where you go from here. I’m pleased you are going to spend some time preparing your second book for publication. It’s about time. Best wishes for its success.

    1. Thanks, Norah. That second book of my short stories is well overdue my attention. Some of the stories in it will be from what I’ve written for Charli’s challenges over at the Carrot Ranch. Most will be extended from the 99 words we’re allowed, but some may stay the same. I’ve certainly got enough for the next book.

  10. Oh Hugh, your love life of your past!! I hope having some distance from Stewart helped to figure everything out. Personally, although he laid it on the line that you would never have a proper relationship because of Barry, at he end of the day, he’s not a nice guy to his Barry is he?? I’m so in agreement about Netflix buying your diary, I’m even beginning to put faces to these characters! Good luck with your book Hugh 🙂 Oh and What a great song choice! I’ve been on many a dance floor bopping to this!

    1. Thanks, Sam. Putting faces to some of the names is a lovely compliment. After the publication of my next short story collection, I’ll see how the rest of this feature spans out and may give a third (entirely different) book, some serious thought. It’s not something I even contemplated when I started this feature. Now, it seems to be spouting different paths I can consider following. I’m glad the idea came to me.

  11. Well, what a pickle you got yourself in Mr. Loverboy LOL. I think you were so not ready for a relationship at the time. Just sayin’ 🙂 And the song, once again, I never heard of it, lol. But I am elated to hear you are coming out with your next book!!!!!! ❤ xx

    1. I seem to remember getting myself into many pickles, Debby. And I think you are right in that I wasn’t really ready at the time. However, just wait until you read next week’s entry 🙄
      Yes, that second book is now in the pipeline. I need to find myself some spare time to put it all together, so June will be that spare time. Afterall, the days are longer, aren’t they? Does that give me more time? 🤔

      1. Well, I for one am looking forward to that next installation. And yes of course, that certainly does give you more time! 🙂 xx Happy weekend my friend. ❤

  12. I just read your comment that you are heading for a break…right about the time I get back from mine! Yours, too, will be well-deserved and we are all excites about “glimpsing” your next book! I really need to work on mine this summer, but work may have other plans for me in terms of planning yet another new class! Loving your journal entrees, Hugh, and I agree with others that these would make good memoirs!

    1. I thought it about time I took a break and gave my second book some well-deserved attention, Terri. I have enough stories for it now and I’m excited that book two will soon be in the pipeline. I’ll be back for this weekly feature, but that it’ll be it until the book is ready. From what comments I’m getting, maybe ideas for my third book (which I wasn’t planning) are awakening?

      1. That is so great, Hugh! They say a book series is the way to go! And with your imagination I’m sure that won’t be too difficult. I can’t believe my ebook is still selling; I get Amazon Kindle royalties (small) every month! My Sunday Stills feature is coming back May 6th. I love your themes and am planning to incorporate them (with a link to your blog)–I’ll plan that part while you are still blogging.

        1. Yes, it’s always great to see those small Amazon Kindle royalties, Terri. Our books may be getting older, but they are still pulling in the readers. It’s a little like some of my older blog posts that continue to always bring in views and comments. It’s strange how some just seem to keep on going.

          Looking forward to Sunday Stills. I’ve recently found the weekends to be very quiet in the blogging world. It may be just me, but views, likes and comments seem to have dropped off, so it’ll be good to have something to get my teeth into on a Sunday.

  13. First, congratulations with the upcoming book! Good idea to take a little break from blogging and focus on that. One can get a lot done in six focused weeks!

    I feel sorry about all the love troubles you went though back in the eighties, Hugh. But, then again, we probably all went through similar feelings and experiences and they made us grow. 🙂

    I wish music played a bigger role in my life. I’d listen to that favorite, pick-me-up song every day these weeks.

    1. Thanks, Liesbet. I’m looking forward to getting stuck into getting the book ready for publication. It’s about time I gave it some attention.

      Thanks for your other comment about having problems leaving comments on my blog. I’ve just left some test comments using my iPad and they came through fine. However, I do moderate all comments before they show in my posts (this acts as a second barrier to stop spam), so this is why your comment won’t show straight away. Also, on my blog’s dashboard, your first comment shows as coming from ‘Anonymous, whereas your second comment shows as coming from Liesbet@ Roaming About. I wonder if it has anything to do with not being logged in when you tried leaving the first comment? I also checked the layout of my posts on my iPad and they displayed correctly. However, I will check my settings on my blog to ensure that they are ‘mobile’ friendly. Thank you for highlighting these problems.

      1. Thanks for looking into this, Hugh. WordPress has been changing settings around. I’m never automatically signed in anymore and even after signing in commenting on one blog, I have to do it all again on the next blog. So, it might have to do with that, or with the cookies message. Maybe I have to accept that to be able to comment correctly. Sometimes I forget (or don’t see the message at the bottom of the screen). I’ll play around with things as well.

        1. No problem, Liesbet. I also checked on how to check that my site was mobile friendly. Google has a tool where you load your sites UPL address and it does a check. I got the green light from it. I also checked with WordPress who told me that the theme I am using is mobile friendly. However, there are some setting to also tick. Happy to say that all was in order. 😀

      2. Glad to hear that, Hugh. Here is one more test that you could do, as this is the issue I have (signed in or not signed in): leave a test comment in the dark grey comment box on your iPad. Then, go back into the text box and click somewhere as if to correct a typo, and see what happens. That’s when the page disappears for me and opens somewhere else on your blog. One time, this behavior happened when I clicked the box “notify me of new comments via email”. Clicking there, brought me elsewhere on your blog. Obviously, if all this works correctly for you, it must be something with my iPad or my Safari browser.

        1. I’ve had a go, Liesbet, and I’m not getting the same errors as you’re getting. I also clicked on the ‘notify me of new comments’ box and, again, the page stayed the same and I was able to proceed without the page taking me anywhere else. I do most of my blogging (including adding and responding to comments) on my desktop, as I find using my iPad and iPhone too cumbersome (plus I’ve made some rather embarrassing errors). However, strangely, I do enjoy reading blog posts on my iPad. It seems to give me far more enjoyment of reading posts.

      3. I’m like you, Hugh. I do all my blog writing, photos, etc. on my computer, but enjoy reading and leaving comments better on my iPad. I think it has to do with sitting behind the computer all day for work, that other devices feel like entertainment. And, I can sit on the couch using them.

        The problem I experienced commenting on your blog only happens when I use my iPad. I’ll try to remember and add your blog to the ones I access from my computer. 🙂

  14. I second Netflix buying your diary! 🙂
    I also admire your decision to step away from blogging for six weeks to work on your second book (exciting stuff). Thank you for keeping us posted.

    1. Thanks (on both accounts), Donna. I’m excited about the next book and even more excited that I now have enough stories to fill the pages. Taking a break will be the only way I’ll get to complete everything. I’ll also look forward to coming back to the world of blogging.

  15. Oh Hugh…!
    I feel for you about the whole love… and not a love game, that you were looking for.

    Love a bit of Yazz!

    And my favourite pick me up song is Don’t Worry, Be Happy Bobby McFerrin!

    And good luck for that next volume of stories!!!!
    I just KNOW it’ll be worth the wait!

    1. Thanks for that lovely choice of song, Ritu. I’m looking forward to finally getting my next book off the ground. It’ll contain some stories I’ve not published on my blog, so something new for all my readers.

  16. “but if it’s helped Dean, then that’s good, isn’t it?”
    Love this line, we humans are experts at self-justification 🙂
    Sorry about Stewart, but something tells me you come out of this okay 🙂

  17. Oh! Hugh, I think Netflix needs to buy your diary. Seriously.
    Good luck with the book. I’ve never tried to compile a set of short stories, although I intend to do one for Pip (the 1920s stories) and for my Atonement, TN series. So much that I hope to finish one day… I better live to be 110…
    Enjoy your break my friend. Hugs.

    1. Thank you, Teagan. I’m not planning the break just yet, but once the Bloggers Bash has taken place it’ll be time for me to get my next collection of short stories ready. They’ve been waiting patiently for me, so June seems like a great month to give them my attention (as it’s when the days are at their longest – will that give me more time? 🤔).
      Hugs to you.

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