49 Days In 1988: Week 4: Too Many Broken Hearts

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Gran Canaria – January 29th, 1988

I’ve never broken the heart of anyone (well, not that I know of). For days I’ve been feeling really guilty about ‘standing-up’ Wilfred. I asked myself how I would have felt if it had been me. No doubt I’m going to find that out as I continue this journey they call life.

I almost turned back when I got to Wilfred’s hotel. If it hadn’t been for one of his friends spotting me, then I probably would have. After all, Wilfred goes home tomorrow, and we’re probably never going to see each other ever again, but I don’t think I could have lived with myself if I had done that.

Not only was Wilfred dark and moody when I saw him but I could tell from his face that he was heartbroken. I must have apologised to him at least a hundred times before the real dark side of Wilfred revealed itself.  It wasn’t me that had broken his heart. It seems he’d been using me as a pawn to get back at somebody else!

Heartbroken? As I left the hotel, not only did I feel like the biggest fool in the world, but my heart was broken at being told that it was not me that had broken a heart. I had merely been used as a weapon to try and break the heart of another person.

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Welcome to this new feature on Hugh’s Views and News. In this feature, I will be sharing snippets from my diary of 1988. We’ll also take a trip in Hugh’s Music Time machine to hear some songs from the 1980s which have been chosen by some specially invited guests.

This week my guest is the author, writer, blogger and ‘writing-champion’, Charli Mills. Like all my guests, Charli was asked to choose a random date and chose the 29th January. So, the above entry from my diary comes courtesy of Charli.

For those that don’t know Charli, she’s the brilliant mind and head of the community over at the Carrot Ranch, a place where hundreds of writers meet every week to participate in a 99-word flash fiction challenge. Many of my own flash fiction stories have come from the prompts set by Charli. Not only is it a fun weekly challenge to participate in, but it helps writers develop their work and stretch their creative minds.

Click here for this week’s 99-word flash fiction challenge.

Charli has gone on to publish a book that contains some of the stories the community at the Carrot Ranch has submitted. The book also includes tips on how to use flash fiction in classrooms, book clubs, and writers groups.

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Click here to buy the book.

I have to thank Charli for not only being my guest today but for also helping me put together my first collection of short stories. The last story in my book, Glimpses, is called ‘The Library’ and was written in response to one of Charli’s challenges. More of my stories from her challenges will feature in my next short story collection.

Charli’s song choice from the 1980s is ‘Bette Davis Eyes’ by Kim Carnes.

Originally written and released in 1974, the version by Kim Carnes was a far more significant hit and went on to spend nine weeks at the number one spot on the Billboard Hot 100. It went on to become the number one song on the singles charts of another 21 counties.

From listening to the lyrics of the song, I think Wilfred may well have had ‘Bette Davis Eyes’ on that last day of his holiday. Do you have a favourite song associated with ‘eyes’ or the way somebody is looking at you? Share a link to it in the comments section. Thanks for the excellent song choice, Charli.

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Next week, the holiday is at an end, and I’m making my way back to London. I wonder what awaits me when I get home?

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  1. The lovely and amazing Charli, here she is! And another fab song choice. I hadn’t realised that you had expanded on several flash fictions for Glimpses Hugh, that’s so great to know. And as for Wilfred, well, I would like to issue a few swear words, but I’ll be good. What goes around comes around, I’m thinking… and for you, much better things ahead 🙂

    1. Delighted to have the lovely Charli as a guest, Sherri. Her 99-word flash fiction challenges have really tested me and I’m so glad that I have given some of them a go. I’ll certainly be expanding some of the stories I have written form the challenges set by Charli. ‘The Library’ (which is the last story in Glimpses) was one of the first stories I wrote over at the Carrot Ranch. Very proud to have it in the book. 😀

      As for Wilfred, he was soon forgotten about. There was too much temptation on offer. 😂

      1. Yes, definitely, lovely Charli has inspired so many of us. I’m looking forward to expanding some of mine too…even for this memoir writer who doesn’t ‘do’ fiction, ha! I loved The Library btw. Haha…and we’ll leave it there 🙂

  2. That Wilfred was a nasty piece of work. I’ve never had that happen to me. My usual scenario was having the guy I met and liked fall for a close friend. I am quite extroverted so it seems I was used as a bit of an introduction agency. It wasn’t usually a case of being used and abused because I loved introducing people and am still a great networker. However, you can’t make someone fall in love with you and that’s one of life’s hardest life lessons for some of us.
    This song doesn’t have anything to do with eyes but it was “our song”…the love who dumped me at the end of the Summer of 87-88.
    Best wishes,

    1. Very true, Rowena. Unless someone has some kind of a magic spell, there’s no way of making somebody fall in love with another person. Some claim to have portions for doing this and there is, of course, the story of the princess and the frog. I’m a firm believer that it will happen when it happens.
      As for Wilfred, he was soon forgotten about (until I opened this diary). 😀

  3. I am so far behind! AH!!! Broken hearts- that’s a tough blow! I haven’t been used like you were but I imagine it’s an awful feeling. As for broken hearts? Once upon a time there was a boy…….. and I’m pretty sure we broke each other’s hearts. It is what it is, right?

    Bette Davis Eyes is a very different song, isn’t it? I always liked it because of it’s unique sound. 🙂

    1. I guess so, Kat. Hearts are very fragile but can take a long time to put back together. Not even superglue works because they can be broken so many times. Then, we find someone who knows how to mend our heart and seals all the cracks.

  4. It’s definitely better to break a heart than have someone break yours, Hugh, and it’s never fun to be used. Wilfred didn’t play nicely at all.
    Thanks for promoting the Anthology. It’s a great read. While mentioning the Ranch, I’m surprised you didn’t mention your Rodeo win. That was pretty awesome!
    Bette Davis eyes is a good song. I like Blue Eyes by Elton John. https://youtu.be/4CiyKeSnSxk

    1. I’m terrible when it comes to ‘blowing my own trumpet, Norah. I usually shy away from self-promotion. However, when I get a compliment, especially for my writing, it’s like as if I’ve won the lottery. 😀

      Didn’t Elton look terrific on that video you shared? Not that he doesn’t now. It’s a great song choice for the theme of ‘eyes.’ Thank you for sharing it with us.

      1. We’re all a bit shy when it comes to self-promotion, but we have to take a deep breath and do it anyway. Acknowledge where acknowledgement’s due. 🙂
        I loved where Elton was singing – the location was magic, as was his voice.

  5. Where about in Gran Canaria? I think I saw a little Hugh shaped piece of heart when I was there last. It was just next to a Mcdonald’s. I love that Bette Davis eyes song too. Roll on next instalment.

      1. Looking forward to it. I’m loving these stories. However, I struggled to find the older ones as I couldn’t find a link to a page on you blog that shows all your recent posts in date order. I’m probably just being Scottish lol

        1. My last 5 posts appear over in the widget bar. However, I now also have a magazine on Flipboard that show all my recent posts. The best way to see these ’49 Days in 1988′ posts is to click on the link at the beginning (that will take you to week 1) and then follow the link at the end of each post that will take you to the next entry.

    1. I had several problems with this post when I published it, Robbie, including that it failed to show up on the WordPress reader. Not sure why, and WordPress wasn’t able to come up with any answers other than it can occasionally happen. Glad you found the post and enjoyed the song.

  6. Wow, Hugh! Today’s entry was interesting and sad. You’re such a good guy and here you were feeling guilty and meanwhile Wilfred was nothing but a user. Weren’t you glad you never had to see him again. I love the song that Charli chose, “Bette Davis Eyes”. I’m going to visit the Carrot Ranch and check out the anthology too. Great post!

    1. I was glad, yes, Vashti. However, Wilfred did teach me a very good lesson doing what he did. I’m glad, though, that I never saw him again.

      I hope you enjoy the visit to the Carott Ranch. It’s great fun and Charli sets great flash fiction challenges. Have fun with them.

  7. Reblogged this on M J Mallon Author and commented:
    Hugh’s wonderfully entertaining music and story feature continues with guest Charli Mill’s song choice Betty Davis Eyes – version by Kim Carnes. I was so honoured to be Hugh’s first guest. Pop over to visit all the week’s guests you won’t be disappointed. Hugh is a wonderfully inventive storyteller and a fantastic host.

  8. You seem to have had a “steamy love life” in the eighties, Hugh. Very entertaining. Hopefully, none of the heart breaks left permanent marks. You must have your guests choose a date within a certain week of the month, right? Otherwise, this feature would become a “tangled mess”. 🙂 Charli’s book sounds very unique, informative and entertaining!

    1. I think the heartbreak taught me a few lessons, Liesbet. That was one thing I had to thank Wilfred for. He taught me a lesson! 😀 There are some large gaps in the entries, but I hope many of you will still be able to follow what is going on.

  9. Hi Hugh,
    Now we are getting into the meat and potatoes of your diary and those early years. Ahhh…if we could go back knowing what we know now. I danced many nights with Betty Davis Eyes. Thanks again for a great series. HUGS

  10. This is going to be one tough act to follow! I’m due in April sometime.

    I enjoyed the story, the process and the progress.
    Continued success to you and all who contribute and visit Carrot Ranch.

  11. Oh, Hugh, it’s so hurtful when you realise you’ve been used. Wilfred probably did have Bette Davis Eyes as in Charli’s song choice – which was new to me. Looking forward to next week’s peek in your diary.

  12. I have always loved the Kim Carnes song. Another song I love is Sad Eyes by Robert John (1979). Oh relationships, how cruel they can be, but it sounds like you were better off without this person in your life. I look forward to more from your diary. So glad you don´t mind us reading it! Have a great week.

    1. Thanks, Darlene. No, I don’t mind you all reading these snippets. I love sharing them with you all. Relationships can be unforgiving, but we have too much love inside of us to give them up. They can also teach us valuable lessons that put us back on track.

  13. Wow, you little heartbroken heartbreaker! You’re like the double agent, except the double heartbrokenbreaker (like my word?) LOL. Love your stories, and sorry your soft heart was duped. We’ve all been there, ok, well, maybe not me as I always seemed to be the heartbreaker lol. Loved seeing Charli here and love Bette Davis Eyes! I always loved ‘These Eyes’ by the Guess Who. ❤

    1. I do. A double heartbreaker. I guess it could be taken different ways, but I like your concept, Debby. Breaking somebody’s heart is like smashing a piece of glass. However, when we put those pieces back together we see a different person in the glass. That’s my way of looking at it, anyway. 😀 Lessons learnt and all that. 💕

  14. That is a hard thing to understand/forget, when you have made yourself vulnerable and you get taken advantage of the scars can last a long time. It takes courage to live the life we want, and to make those choices when we know how much we can get hurt, but it is worth it in the long run. Thanks for sharing Hugh.

    1. I took the scars home with me, Claudette. They certainly put a dampener on the holiday. However, within a few weeks, they had healed and Wilfred was soon forgotten about. The experience taught me a few lessons, though.

  15. Hi, Charli – Thank you for reconnecting me to one of my favourite songs from the 80’s.
    And thank you, Hugh for sharing another enticing snippet from your diary. I want to know more!!

  16. You have too big of a heart, Hugh to be a heartbreaker. What people like Wilfred come to recognize at some point is that the energy spent on using others instead of getting to know them leads to a lonely life. It’s a brave project you are doing, going back and poking at old diary entries. I hope it’s cathartic, too! I’m amazed at how well the series entries are matching up to songs your guests have selected. It’s an honor to be featured at your place and take part in your creative journey. Oh, heck yes — I accept the title of “writing champion”! Thanks, Hugh!

    1. I’m enjoying reading these diaries again, Charli. I’ve discovered some old scars which have resulted in some strange feelings, but I’ll write about that in my upcoming guest post.

      As for the connections, I’m looking for them. Sometimes, they can be deep, but I think there’s always a connection somewhere and I seem to be able to come across them without too many problems. However, there’s still many weeks of this series to go and I’m sure some weeks I’m going to be beaten.

      Thank you so much for being my guest on the music time machine. I love the song you chose, although haven’t heard it being played for a long time. I’m glad it’s had some airing here on the blog today.

  17. I don’t think there’s any worse feeling than breaking someone’s heart – and then to find out it wasn’t you. Oh my. That’s called a roller coaster. The only eyes song I can think of is My Eyes Adored You – which isn’t my favorite anything of a song but there it goes.

  18. Oh no, that was a very hard lesson learned, Hugh! It is a horrible feeling to know that we have been used by someone and I hope that at least, it stopped your feelings of guilt for having stood Wilfred up. My song choice is something that my sister loved listening to when I was very young. https://youtu.be/Xqz9eyakGqY. It is about unrequited love which most of us have been through!

    1. It was very tough at the time, Judy. I can be a sensitive soul. However, this was the first of many lessons I learned in my life. I’d forgotten all about it until I discovered the diary, but oh the hidden scars that can resurface. Still, time did heal and, within a few weeks, it was all forgotten about.
      A great song choice from you. Thank you for sharing it with us.

  19. What a harsh lesson about the irrational rules of the game we humans call heartbreak. I’m glad you moved on. Does reviewing the diary bring back the feelings you had back then? Charli is terrific and I need to try some of the writing prompts. The first song that came to my mind regarding eyes and looking at someone was Roberta Flack’s ‘The First Time Ever I Saw Your Face. Love this song. https://youtu.be/Id_UYLPSn6U

    1. Yes, I’ll be writing about those feelings in a guest post I’ve been asked to write, Molly. I’ll share the link to the post on my blog. Finding this diary has caused a lot to happen, but I’m enjoying those feelings and reliving this part of my life.
      Thank you for the lovely song choice. It’s the type of song I could listen to while sitting in a big comfortable chair while drinking a glass of red wine.
      And please do have a go at some of the 99-word writing challenges from Charli. They are great fun to do, although some have beaten me.

      Found your comment in the spam folder. No idea why it ended up in there.

      1. Glad you found my comment – isn’t it weird how sometimes comments end up in spam? I had some diaries from my past and I burned them a few years ago. Your series makes me wish I’d kept them, but they were not written during happy times, so maybe it’s just as well. I will be interested in your guest post. Your image of listening to that song sitting in comfy chair drinking a glass of wine has me cutting this comment short. Gotta go pour a glass of wine and listen to Roberta Flack. I will try one of the prompts. I played around with an older one today and found it interesting and challenging.

        1. The spam monster is a strange creature, Molly. I just hope he leaves me alone as I’ve been captured three times with all my comments going to spam.

          I’m glad you had a play around with one of the prompts. They are great fun, although I do need to participate a bit more often.

  20. You must have felt so gutted by Wilfred using you like that. I’ve seen this sort of thing happen with girl/boy relationships, too. It rarely pans out well for either party. I’m glad it didn’t put you off relationships altogether.

  21. Glad to see you’re writing up a storm! Also, good to see someone doing something with the volumes of diaries/journals we let clutter up in dusty boxes. Mmmm… I should look at some of mine.

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